So here I am....almost a week of living single. I don't hate it but this wouldn't be my first preference. Here's how its gone.
NIGHT ONE:
After Jimmy pulled out of the parking lot - I sat in the car with my other ex. We drove to his house so I could drop him off. Within a bit of talking - I made plans to see my friend for a bit in Crofton. I was saying goobye and thanks to my ex - and he goes in for two kisses at two different points of the goodbye. My head swerved so fast. Not happening. Im in no emotional stand point for this. And within 30 minutes of just leaving my ex?!?! Oh geez... I got out of the situation and headed to Crofton.
I looked down at my phone...about 5 texts had already come in from Jimmy. 2 of those 5 - jealous texts about my ex. Good Lord. It made me smile though, at least he cared. I called him to let him know I was okay. He hadnt even made it home yet - he stopped to get a slurpee. [aww my fave thing lol]
I got to Crofton and met my friend. I held back a few burst of tears while I talked to him about everything. My phone starts ringing - Jimmy. He vented to me about his landlord. Then spent the rest of the night til he fell asleep venting about things. He also - asked, if I was still considering him and I living together with a friend of ours. I was thrown the fuck off. I JUST LEFT - and now you want to COME BACK TOGETHER?!?!!? Oh geez.
I spent a few hours with my friend - enjoying my single life again. Then headed to go sleep at a girlfriends place not far away. Jimmy had planned on swinging by in the morning to drop off my sneakers. I stayed up til about 4am...sad but okay.
DAY TWO:
He came by but couldnt find my car so left. He randomly texted me through the day. I had made plans to go by the apartment complex I was interested in to get paperwork. My friend met me there - and we started signing papers. The idea of Jimmy living with us came into our talk. The week before that - we had taken Jimmy along to do a walk through. We were torn and the office was closing and we couldnt decide on anything. So, I agreed to bring paperwork back later.
My phone goes off - its Jimmy. He's still at work but wanted to know what we decided. I said I needed to talk to him tonight when I come to get my sneakers. An hour later - he called me to tell me he was getting off work and to meet him at his place and then asks if Im coming to dinner with Jenn Tim and himself. [he was taking them out to thank them for watching our pups while we went to Ohio]. I replied saying I didnt know I was invited.
So I headed to his place - Tim was there waiting on Jimmy. We walked in cause Tim was walking the pups - and I saw a comforter thrown in a ball on the couch, I saw his cans/food on the table, and saw his lovely website choice on the computer. I glanced at the bed...he didnt sleep on it. [aww...]
Jimmy showed up not long later. In the midst of our hellos and catching up - Tim asked why Nostradamus was acting up. I explained I had packed up and now moved out. So the dogs were thrown off. Tim was thrown off even more. I asked Jimmy if he slept on the couch - he looked down and said yea. I picked on him saying "aww, you wont sleep there without me". He threw something at me lol
We got ready for dinner - and headed out. I drove the boys in the convertible. Dinner was quiet but nice. Afterwards - Jimmy and I grabbed the pups and took a long walk around the neighborhood. He brought up the topic first.
We debated everything as far as living together goes. He said overall - he's okay with it but isnt going to know how to handle everyone else :: AKA: THe guys. I agreed saying, I think my friends would eventually accept it but not right away. I mentioned how difficult dating would be - not just for each other but for the people we date. I also explained - my thought right now, is NOT to be dating. Ive got goals and things coming up that demand my attention. The conversation helped my nerves but not the decision. We decided we'd fill out the paperwork all together, turn it in and go from there. We get 3 days from submitting it - to change our minds. Unfortunately - its our only option - because my income level isnt high enough without him. So, Id be willing to work with this to have a place to be.
I headed out and met Tim and a couple we know to see a midnight movie. Throughout that hour or so - Jimmy texted me more about his landlord til he fell asleep.
DAY THREE
My plan was to run some errands and then drop off paperwork. My plans changed a bit. Throughout my day being out and about - Jimmy and I had pre-agreed to plans with some other friends of ours and his sister. We texted through the day about a game plan for our pups and meeting up to drive together. I took care of the pups then napped. Jimmy got in from work - and got changed up. We headed across the bridge - I decided to drive so we could take the convertible. I noticed he hadnt touched his phone through the entire ride - other than checking traffic. I appreciated that. We got to dinner - and caught up with our friends. We talked so much - and laughed. It felt good to laugh - together. We touched on random topics - til we switched over to the bar. And thats where our in depth relationship conversation came into play. It hit me that Jimmy wants to be proud of himself before accepting us. Made sense. FINALLY.
After the bar closed - we headed out. Jimmy and I joked around about hooking up in the convertible and then he impressed me by saying something he said to me at the beginning of our relationship. "I dont feel right about having random casual sex with you." "why?" "because we don't do that. we do it in a bed, at our home - and its not random in a bad way". Needless to say - no we didnt have sex but that idea stuck with me. I was glad he didnt see us that way, even after all we've been through. I drove him home - and he asked me where I was staying, I said dont worry about it. He asked me to just stay the night. I debated it...but then knew how tired I was even on the drive home. So I agreed. I got the bed situated and climbed in with the puppies. Jimmy hopped in. I sat up - I thought you dont sleep on the bed. He goes, "tonight I am". Mhmm.... no nothing happened but still. I gave up and went to bed. I crashed...HARD.
DAY FOUR:
His alarm went off and it made me realize - I had to be up and going and I was late! I needed that sleep though. I got dressed fast and he drove me down to my car. He took the pups to work. We said goodbye and didnt talk til almost afternoon. We spoke on the phone and texted randomly. He had a lot more jobs then he expected - it was HOT and HUMID, so I felt awful for the pups. His friend Chris and I began chatting - he mentioned us coming by the hospital to meet his daughter. He said he'd try and talk with Jimmy - and I said, Id do the same. As I headed down to Bowie - I figured Jimmy wouldnt be up for going. So I got there - he was watching a Marilyn Monroe movie [my favorite actress ever] and just finished eating. He talked with one of the guys about golfing - I had wrongly assumed he had plans for the evening. I ended up crashing on the bed for 2 hours. When I woke up - Jimmy was knocked out on his new recliner. I took the dogs for a walk - and when I got back - he said Lets go. So - we drove separately and went to hospital. He took a few walks with Chris - we made random jokes with Brooke and spent two hours with them and their BEAUTIFUL daughter. I had tried to make plans with friends to go bowling - but no one was fully into any ideas and we never got a game plan. So, I told Jimmy it fell through. He seemed as if he wanted to come along but also looked tired, but we headed out. He drove me up to my car on another level and asked where I was staying. I looked at him - like why do you keep asking?!!? He goes, well just stay at the house. You cant keep staying but just stay there til you figure it out. I said NO thats not the point. He said just get over it. I rolled my eyes but agreed. It'd be nice to actually upload the wedding photos and start editing. PLUS - Ill take any opportunity to snuggle my babies. We drove home - which made me realize, i just wasted gas. I got to his place - and hopped online. I started editing like crazy. He took to playing video games - he ordered some pizza. We stayed up pretty late - then finally, he shut off the lights and I pulled myself away from the computer. We crashed almost right away - well I did. He had some random energy and didnt sleep very well, he said. He seemed to be kinda overwhelmed or stressed but I couldnt figure why. He had golf early so I was hoping he'd just SLEEP.
DAY FIVE
Jimmy woke me up to let me know we needed to get going. His landlord was outside so I held back while he left. I ended up falling asleep til almost noon. I dragged myself up, took pups out and went to FINALLY drop off paperwork. I figured Jimmy would change his mind but once I told him I dropped off paperwork - he said okay cool. I needed a check to pay for our fees - which was cool b ut then I needed another one for our holding fee. CRAP. I had no more checks. Jon wasnt awake enough to come down and Jimmy was golfing and had no company checks - only personal, which is not in standing to help. I decided to go think to myself. Jimmy texted me saying he was done golfing and I could swing by whenever. I decided to get myself a frozen cappuccino and got him a mango smoothie. Hes always buying me things. So I get there - hes cleaning out his car like there's no tomorrow. I walk in - laundry is done, boxes put away, everything was CLEAN. I was very surprised. ASSUMING - I figured he might be having one of the guys or hey, maybe even a girl over. I was wrong. He got into a cleaning fit. I was impressed, about fucking time. I searched the entire room for checks of mine. NOTHING. I told him I needed to give him cash and have him write a personal check. He said he was about to nap. I said can we meet later? I expected a NO, but he said sure. So I gave love to the pups and headed out- taking the smoothie with me cause he didnt want it. [EW]
I met up with my friend at his job and hung out there- then went on a drive during his break and I sought out advice from him ab the move. Afterwards, I headed to my girlfriends place - we chatted then headed to run some errands and sit at Caribou. We talked about the moving situation - that helped to talk more about it. Jimmy hadnt napped yet - but he was telling me about the lawyers he was trying to talk with to get his court issues in line. I was impressed, yet again. We went back to my girlfriends place and we invited two guy friends over. We just sat around on youtube and talked about random shit - marriage, dating, sex, homosexuality, friends, parties, rating girls lol Jimmy texted - saying he had just worked out [impressed AGAIN!] and was going to head over to me. He got there - but left his wallet. AYE. So he said he'd come back in the morning. Meanwhile - we all decided to go to Batemans or Stan and Joe's in Edgewater - but as we walked out - that turned into The Irish Channel. I was pretty in awe of this place - it was chill but delicious and fun. We stayed out pretty late - Jimmy said he was just staying in to chill and relax. IMPRESSEDDDDDD. lol
I stayed up super late - once again.
DAY SIX:
I woke up early to make sure I didnt miss Jimmy dropping off the check - while my service sucks, So I did miss Jimmy. But he left it under my hood. So it was all good. He randomly texted me. I dyed my hair, hung out, edited some photos then decided I needed to go drop off the check. That was painless. I wasnt sure what to do with myself - and forced myself to go to the gym. FINALLY. I took about two hours there, then over to Bed Bath and Beyond. Got Jenn her birthday card. I decided to leave - and go to Crofton to look for an outfit for Jenn's birthday night at the end of the week. Which turned into a success - I got the pups something too. I walked over to Caribou to charge my phone. Ended up finding a cute card for Jenn to say goodbye [jimmy's sister]. My friend messaged me and he decided to come meet me. An hour or so later - my girlfriend came to meet us. We sat and chatted. Jimmy texted me saying he was going to say bye to his sister later. I was surprised - but thought that was good. We decided to just ride together - he was going to pick me up from my girlfriends place. So after 3/4 hours of bumming around Waugh Chapel - I headed to park my car. Jimmy scooped me up with the pups - and off we went. Once again - stayed off his phone the entire ride. We stopped and got food for the road at Wawa. It was a relaxing night at his parents place - we finally saw the new house. We stayed til kinda late. He drove home - and I fell asleep. I assumed he was taking me to my car/my girlfriends house - but I woke up to his driveway. He said he was tired and would drop me off in the morning. I walked in to see the house kinda messy again but the comforter put differently on the couch. I asked him if he slept there again? He said yes...but like the other night - he hopped right in the bed. I was too tired to even throw a phone on the charger - and just went to sleep.
DAY SEVEN:
Woke up feeling super sick. Got up a couple times then climbed in bed. Out of habit - I rubbed his back for a bit til his alarm went off. He and I got ready - I walked the pups. And we had a semi-silent ride to my car. He said he'd let me know if he wanted me to take him to court the next day. I said okay - just let me know since it was early in the morning. I took the day to hang with a friend, watch a movie and catch up on my own things.
And here I am now...
SO.......AFTER ALL THAT....
I haven't had ONE single day without seeing Jimmy. Let alone - without at least 2 phone calls or 10 texts. There is NO complaints but my mind cant help but observe that he's basically hanging alone - if not randomly seeing friends, 98% of the time with me. Golf was his only exception.
NOW im not stupid. Its only been a week. He could very well have lots of plans coming up - or even dates. He could be very well texting other girls through out all this too. I wouldnt know and I hope I dont find out. I know this doesnt mean he loves me or misses me - it may just be coincidence. But its still a good feeling.
NIGHT ONE:
After Jimmy pulled out of the parking lot - I sat in the car with my other ex. We drove to his house so I could drop him off. Within a bit of talking - I made plans to see my friend for a bit in Crofton. I was saying goobye and thanks to my ex - and he goes in for two kisses at two different points of the goodbye. My head swerved so fast. Not happening. Im in no emotional stand point for this. And within 30 minutes of just leaving my ex?!?! Oh geez... I got out of the situation and headed to Crofton.
I looked down at my phone...about 5 texts had already come in from Jimmy. 2 of those 5 - jealous texts about my ex. Good Lord. It made me smile though, at least he cared. I called him to let him know I was okay. He hadnt even made it home yet - he stopped to get a slurpee. [aww my fave thing lol]
I got to Crofton and met my friend. I held back a few burst of tears while I talked to him about everything. My phone starts ringing - Jimmy. He vented to me about his landlord. Then spent the rest of the night til he fell asleep venting about things. He also - asked, if I was still considering him and I living together with a friend of ours. I was thrown the fuck off. I JUST LEFT - and now you want to COME BACK TOGETHER?!?!!? Oh geez.
I spent a few hours with my friend - enjoying my single life again. Then headed to go sleep at a girlfriends place not far away. Jimmy had planned on swinging by in the morning to drop off my sneakers. I stayed up til about 4am...sad but okay.
DAY TWO:
He came by but couldnt find my car so left. He randomly texted me through the day. I had made plans to go by the apartment complex I was interested in to get paperwork. My friend met me there - and we started signing papers. The idea of Jimmy living with us came into our talk. The week before that - we had taken Jimmy along to do a walk through. We were torn and the office was closing and we couldnt decide on anything. So, I agreed to bring paperwork back later.
My phone goes off - its Jimmy. He's still at work but wanted to know what we decided. I said I needed to talk to him tonight when I come to get my sneakers. An hour later - he called me to tell me he was getting off work and to meet him at his place and then asks if Im coming to dinner with Jenn Tim and himself. [he was taking them out to thank them for watching our pups while we went to Ohio]. I replied saying I didnt know I was invited.
So I headed to his place - Tim was there waiting on Jimmy. We walked in cause Tim was walking the pups - and I saw a comforter thrown in a ball on the couch, I saw his cans/food on the table, and saw his lovely website choice on the computer. I glanced at the bed...he didnt sleep on it. [aww...]
Jimmy showed up not long later. In the midst of our hellos and catching up - Tim asked why Nostradamus was acting up. I explained I had packed up and now moved out. So the dogs were thrown off. Tim was thrown off even more. I asked Jimmy if he slept on the couch - he looked down and said yea. I picked on him saying "aww, you wont sleep there without me". He threw something at me lol
We got ready for dinner - and headed out. I drove the boys in the convertible. Dinner was quiet but nice. Afterwards - Jimmy and I grabbed the pups and took a long walk around the neighborhood. He brought up the topic first.
We debated everything as far as living together goes. He said overall - he's okay with it but isnt going to know how to handle everyone else :: AKA: THe guys. I agreed saying, I think my friends would eventually accept it but not right away. I mentioned how difficult dating would be - not just for each other but for the people we date. I also explained - my thought right now, is NOT to be dating. Ive got goals and things coming up that demand my attention. The conversation helped my nerves but not the decision. We decided we'd fill out the paperwork all together, turn it in and go from there. We get 3 days from submitting it - to change our minds. Unfortunately - its our only option - because my income level isnt high enough without him. So, Id be willing to work with this to have a place to be.
I headed out and met Tim and a couple we know to see a midnight movie. Throughout that hour or so - Jimmy texted me more about his landlord til he fell asleep.
DAY THREE
My plan was to run some errands and then drop off paperwork. My plans changed a bit. Throughout my day being out and about - Jimmy and I had pre-agreed to plans with some other friends of ours and his sister. We texted through the day about a game plan for our pups and meeting up to drive together. I took care of the pups then napped. Jimmy got in from work - and got changed up. We headed across the bridge - I decided to drive so we could take the convertible. I noticed he hadnt touched his phone through the entire ride - other than checking traffic. I appreciated that. We got to dinner - and caught up with our friends. We talked so much - and laughed. It felt good to laugh - together. We touched on random topics - til we switched over to the bar. And thats where our in depth relationship conversation came into play. It hit me that Jimmy wants to be proud of himself before accepting us. Made sense. FINALLY.
After the bar closed - we headed out. Jimmy and I joked around about hooking up in the convertible and then he impressed me by saying something he said to me at the beginning of our relationship. "I dont feel right about having random casual sex with you." "why?" "because we don't do that. we do it in a bed, at our home - and its not random in a bad way". Needless to say - no we didnt have sex but that idea stuck with me. I was glad he didnt see us that way, even after all we've been through. I drove him home - and he asked me where I was staying, I said dont worry about it. He asked me to just stay the night. I debated it...but then knew how tired I was even on the drive home. So I agreed. I got the bed situated and climbed in with the puppies. Jimmy hopped in. I sat up - I thought you dont sleep on the bed. He goes, "tonight I am". Mhmm.... no nothing happened but still. I gave up and went to bed. I crashed...HARD.
DAY FOUR:
His alarm went off and it made me realize - I had to be up and going and I was late! I needed that sleep though. I got dressed fast and he drove me down to my car. He took the pups to work. We said goodbye and didnt talk til almost afternoon. We spoke on the phone and texted randomly. He had a lot more jobs then he expected - it was HOT and HUMID, so I felt awful for the pups. His friend Chris and I began chatting - he mentioned us coming by the hospital to meet his daughter. He said he'd try and talk with Jimmy - and I said, Id do the same. As I headed down to Bowie - I figured Jimmy wouldnt be up for going. So I got there - he was watching a Marilyn Monroe movie [my favorite actress ever] and just finished eating. He talked with one of the guys about golfing - I had wrongly assumed he had plans for the evening. I ended up crashing on the bed for 2 hours. When I woke up - Jimmy was knocked out on his new recliner. I took the dogs for a walk - and when I got back - he said Lets go. So - we drove separately and went to hospital. He took a few walks with Chris - we made random jokes with Brooke and spent two hours with them and their BEAUTIFUL daughter. I had tried to make plans with friends to go bowling - but no one was fully into any ideas and we never got a game plan. So, I told Jimmy it fell through. He seemed as if he wanted to come along but also looked tired, but we headed out. He drove me up to my car on another level and asked where I was staying. I looked at him - like why do you keep asking?!!? He goes, well just stay at the house. You cant keep staying but just stay there til you figure it out. I said NO thats not the point. He said just get over it. I rolled my eyes but agreed. It'd be nice to actually upload the wedding photos and start editing. PLUS - Ill take any opportunity to snuggle my babies. We drove home - which made me realize, i just wasted gas. I got to his place - and hopped online. I started editing like crazy. He took to playing video games - he ordered some pizza. We stayed up pretty late - then finally, he shut off the lights and I pulled myself away from the computer. We crashed almost right away - well I did. He had some random energy and didnt sleep very well, he said. He seemed to be kinda overwhelmed or stressed but I couldnt figure why. He had golf early so I was hoping he'd just SLEEP.
DAY FIVE
Jimmy woke me up to let me know we needed to get going. His landlord was outside so I held back while he left. I ended up falling asleep til almost noon. I dragged myself up, took pups out and went to FINALLY drop off paperwork. I figured Jimmy would change his mind but once I told him I dropped off paperwork - he said okay cool. I needed a check to pay for our fees - which was cool b ut then I needed another one for our holding fee. CRAP. I had no more checks. Jon wasnt awake enough to come down and Jimmy was golfing and had no company checks - only personal, which is not in standing to help. I decided to go think to myself. Jimmy texted me saying he was done golfing and I could swing by whenever. I decided to get myself a frozen cappuccino and got him a mango smoothie. Hes always buying me things. So I get there - hes cleaning out his car like there's no tomorrow. I walk in - laundry is done, boxes put away, everything was CLEAN. I was very surprised. ASSUMING - I figured he might be having one of the guys or hey, maybe even a girl over. I was wrong. He got into a cleaning fit. I was impressed, about fucking time. I searched the entire room for checks of mine. NOTHING. I told him I needed to give him cash and have him write a personal check. He said he was about to nap. I said can we meet later? I expected a NO, but he said sure. So I gave love to the pups and headed out- taking the smoothie with me cause he didnt want it. [EW]
I met up with my friend at his job and hung out there- then went on a drive during his break and I sought out advice from him ab the move. Afterwards, I headed to my girlfriends place - we chatted then headed to run some errands and sit at Caribou. We talked about the moving situation - that helped to talk more about it. Jimmy hadnt napped yet - but he was telling me about the lawyers he was trying to talk with to get his court issues in line. I was impressed, yet again. We went back to my girlfriends place and we invited two guy friends over. We just sat around on youtube and talked about random shit - marriage, dating, sex, homosexuality, friends, parties, rating girls lol Jimmy texted - saying he had just worked out [impressed AGAIN!] and was going to head over to me. He got there - but left his wallet. AYE. So he said he'd come back in the morning. Meanwhile - we all decided to go to Batemans or Stan and Joe's in Edgewater - but as we walked out - that turned into The Irish Channel. I was pretty in awe of this place - it was chill but delicious and fun. We stayed out pretty late - Jimmy said he was just staying in to chill and relax. IMPRESSEDDDDDD. lol
I stayed up super late - once again.
DAY SIX:
I woke up early to make sure I didnt miss Jimmy dropping off the check - while my service sucks, So I did miss Jimmy. But he left it under my hood. So it was all good. He randomly texted me. I dyed my hair, hung out, edited some photos then decided I needed to go drop off the check. That was painless. I wasnt sure what to do with myself - and forced myself to go to the gym. FINALLY. I took about two hours there, then over to Bed Bath and Beyond. Got Jenn her birthday card. I decided to leave - and go to Crofton to look for an outfit for Jenn's birthday night at the end of the week. Which turned into a success - I got the pups something too. I walked over to Caribou to charge my phone. Ended up finding a cute card for Jenn to say goodbye [jimmy's sister]. My friend messaged me and he decided to come meet me. An hour or so later - my girlfriend came to meet us. We sat and chatted. Jimmy texted me saying he was going to say bye to his sister later. I was surprised - but thought that was good. We decided to just ride together - he was going to pick me up from my girlfriends place. So after 3/4 hours of bumming around Waugh Chapel - I headed to park my car. Jimmy scooped me up with the pups - and off we went. Once again - stayed off his phone the entire ride. We stopped and got food for the road at Wawa. It was a relaxing night at his parents place - we finally saw the new house. We stayed til kinda late. He drove home - and I fell asleep. I assumed he was taking me to my car/my girlfriends house - but I woke up to his driveway. He said he was tired and would drop me off in the morning. I walked in to see the house kinda messy again but the comforter put differently on the couch. I asked him if he slept there again? He said yes...but like the other night - he hopped right in the bed. I was too tired to even throw a phone on the charger - and just went to sleep.
DAY SEVEN:
Woke up feeling super sick. Got up a couple times then climbed in bed. Out of habit - I rubbed his back for a bit til his alarm went off. He and I got ready - I walked the pups. And we had a semi-silent ride to my car. He said he'd let me know if he wanted me to take him to court the next day. I said okay - just let me know since it was early in the morning. I took the day to hang with a friend, watch a movie and catch up on my own things.
And here I am now...
SO.......AFTER ALL THAT....
I haven't had ONE single day without seeing Jimmy. Let alone - without at least 2 phone calls or 10 texts. There is NO complaints but my mind cant help but observe that he's basically hanging alone - if not randomly seeing friends, 98% of the time with me. Golf was his only exception.
NOW im not stupid. Its only been a week. He could very well have lots of plans coming up - or even dates. He could be very well texting other girls through out all this too. I wouldnt know and I hope I dont find out. I know this doesnt mean he loves me or misses me - it may just be coincidence. But its still a good feeling.
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